2.5

Admittedly, I was in a bad mood yesterday. So naturally I wasn’t excited to do anything, let alone be perky and friendly. However, I did still want to see J and I trekked it across town to his apartment. His roommate had just moved out on Saturday so his apartment looked spacious. Picture no couch, no TV in the living room, no table, no cups! So we went into his bedroom to watch Weeds the tv show. Which as a side note, is not nearly all its cracked up to be! Then again I did only see one episode. After the show we chatted, and made out (PG style) and then I left to go home. Overall it was a very pleasant night.

2.4

I need to change my dizzler profile to read: YOU MUST MAKE DECISIONS and/or PLANS! Is it that hard? Look, I believe everyone has a mind for themselves, but on a first date, a man should have an idea if not a plan of a place to go. For the second time this week, I met a date on the corner, and then walked aimlessly around looking to go somewhere. That usually leads to a conversation like this: do you want dinner? I don’t care, I don’t care either, do you want drinks? Where do you want to go? - Its very frustrating, to be in the city where choices are endless, and not have the other person help to make a decision. Or at least just decide for the first date. That was my PSA- I met L on the corner of 50 and Lex- we walked to 2nd, and 58th looking for places… all the while passing places that I said, oh how about this, or that… just frustrating. Now, L is cute, he has bad teeth, but he’s nice. He’s Israeli, and when I spoke with him on the phone the night before, I thought, yikes- I’m in for a rude awakening, because I can barely understand him. It was slightly better in person. We went to get sushi, and spoke a lot about his life in Israel, and the army, and his business he started here. I think he’s very ambitious- his family runs a diamond manufacturing company in Israel, and they ship him the diamonds, and then he sells it to brokers, who then sell it to the store. He lives with a few Israeli friends, and at that moment, I imagined myself out on a Friday night with him, and thinking- wow I can never be buzzed around him and his friends, because I wouldn’t understand what they’re all saying! Incidentally- they speak Hebrew at home. He’s cute, and nice, but too thin, and the teeth. Overall I’m on the fence about this one. We shall see if he calls.
Tonight I’m meeting up with J on the West side to begin the "Weeds" series. As far as "we" are concerned, I’ll feel it out later- his shyness might be diminishing- but then again, I might be wrong.

2.3

Date last night was good. I met up with J (same boy from Thursday). After a ½ hour of back and forth where do you want to go etc… we finally found a local corner bar on the UWS. We ordered drinks, and then spoke about his roommate leaving, and his plans with the apartment, and his impending trip to Hong Kong. All of it was very nice. I think he’s attractive. But he’s shy- as in painfully quiet. And even worse- I called him out on the decision making thing, and his answer is “I don’t make decisions/and I don’t plan”. Both are big time negative attributes, because that’s me! And someone needs to plan and make a decision! I mean he’s sooo bad that when I asked where did he want to meet, he couldn’t even pick the street! That’s really bad. As the night went on, he seemed to open up a bit more, and the conversations turned to TV, and that’s obviously a favorite of mine. We made plans to start to watch Weeds, on Showtime together sometime this week. So yes, I’ll go outwith him again, because maybe he’ll open up a bit when he gets to know someone… but after date 3, I’ll make a game time decision. He walked to me to the corner we kissed, and then I left… we texted back and forth for about an hour and then I went to bed.

This time around

This time around things will be different. I've done a lot of thinking in the past week, and well I've realized I could have handled things differently, but the truth is, we all could have at some point. This time I'm going to concentrate, try, and be mature about the entire dating scene. Its less numbers (although that won't hurt) and more about developing feelings. And that's what I will be striving for.