Game on!

After a long conversation with A last night I think I’ve changed my mind again- game on! To break it down, my mindset works in the following way: I once dated only one person, and just when the coast was clear, and I felt like I could let my guard down, I did- and just as quickly, I became sadly hurt, because the guy had been dating others all along, and choose someone else. Hence why I like to date multiple people. So as stated yesterday, I think 3 is a round number, and perfectly doable. But now more then ever, I feel like I maybe looking for 2 additional people. Here’s why: I spoke with A last night, and was painted a picture of the old “S”- the one who could go from HH all the way through 4am without food. That’s not the person I am today, yet, sometimes it rears its ugly head. Queue Friday! And the sad thing is, I knew this would happen, going downtown to meet him at 11PM, and I knew I should have been in bed, and not at a bar. Turns out A has “anger issues” (his words) and doesn’t really appreciate intoxicated people. To further ice the cake, he’s in a less then stellar mental place, with no job, awful job market, and at a loss of what he wants to do/be, he thought that by now in his life he would have had a gf (which is refreshing to hear) and a better apt, and at least a direction. All last night I learned, is not the case. And while we talked it was strange for me to hear someone say all of this. First- why are you calling me, if your going to call me out on my behavior (which I deserve)? And Secondly, its about time I see a glimmer of the real person you are, and not the presumptuous, hipster, trust fund baby that you claim to be every time we talk. Now, despite the heaping dose of honesty, I was left wondering still why would he have called me, and to further ice the cake, why does he still want to go out? Regardless of the answers (which I wasn’t satisfied with) I told him that I would like to see him again, and that we would talk soon. But this all begs the question of, while I know this kid is special and will amount to amazing things in the future, from what I can see the immediate outlook brings things to light that I’m not sure I want to deal with in him, and myself included. Yikes!
Moral = get back dating....